It is times like these, where we need to hold the ones we love, closest to us. There has been so much loss this year. You never know what the person next to you is going through. Try to lend a helping hand, or even pass over a little smile. It is insane how much a simple smile can improve someones day. I often find myself gazing through my window at night. It is in these small moments alone, I find myself in deepest of thoughts. I have been going though a lot these days – just like everyone else. These days, staying positive is one of the biggest challenges I have. The biggest battle I have, is within myself. I am trying each day to improve and work on myself. It wont be easy, but I have hope. I am one of the “lucky ones” who made it this far and I do not want to give up without a fair fight.

Take a look at today’s poem:

I want it to be you.
I want to be the lucky one,
The one who wakes up next to you, On a Saturday afternoon.
I want to be the lucky one,
The one who kisses you goodnight.
I want to be the lucky one,
The one who is given a chance to love you. I want to be the lucky one,

Forever.

Why does writing poetry calm me down so much?

Whenever my heart hurts, the only way I can express it is by crying or writing.

Literature, words, sentences – what a beautiful concept!

Here is my latest heartbreak:

It hurts, I told him.
Help me.
But he didn’t care.
All that I was,
Was a memory.
A memory wanting to be forgotten.

I have no one. I am all alone.

I’m broken. My soul is broken.

Who do I tell? Does anyone care?

Its interesting how fast or slow time moves in certain situations. Five minutes can go by so fast when you are happy and so slow when you are devastated. I personally am not a fan of this phenomena. I feel like I am always on the devastating side of things.

Those five minutes can be so deadly and cause the most pain you have ever felt in your entire life. Why is it whenever I am happy, it doesn’t last?

I know you must all be thinking I am always upset, but man life seems hard these days. I feel like I forgot how to live. I don’t know what to do with my life anymore. I just want five minutes. I want five minutes of happiness.

Check out the poem I wrote:

Recently, scholars from all around the world have started to publish articles related to COVID-19. Most of us in our free time are reading these articles and coming up with ideas in our minds.

This article I found, titled “Friend or Foe”—Supplemental Oxygen for COVID-19 patients debunked is a must read. Attention needs to be brought to this fast!!!

Here is the link: https://osf.io/mx7dv/ OR https://scholar.googleusercontent.com/scholar?q=cache:VRjvnFixHx0J:scholar.google.com/+friend+of+foe+covid+oxygen&hl=en&as_sdt=0,33

A lot of us have heard that we need ventilators more than ever to survive. What people are not realizing, is that too much oxygen is a bad thing! Yes you read that right. We need it to survive – but, in the case of COVID-19, too much oxygen is causing oxidative stress on the body and ultimately leaving our bodies weaker than before.

Please share this article to as many people as you can, attention needs to be brought to this before things get worse!

Help save lives!!!!

Living in this pandemic has been tough for us all. A big thank you to all our first responders. We would not survive this without you! However, a lot of us have more free time than usual. In that free time some of us are battling school work, jobs or taking care of loved ones.

It is super important to do one thing – STAY POSITIVE! By this time, a lot of us are losing our minds but we need to turn this into positive energy.

Does anyone ever wonder with all of this craziness, who are we? Where did we come from? What we are even doing on this planet?

These days I find myself digging into questions like these more and more. I wonder, is there a creator? I mean don’t you wonder? How did we get here? What is our true purpose? Working, going to school and doing that on repeat doesn’t seem like the cause for creating a whole universe! I have no idea, I am on the same boat as you. I guess we all should do some digging and maybe find out the true reason for the creation of humanity. Please let me know your perspective or if you find anything.

I can’t anymore. I feel like im dying, but im not. I don’t want to live. Theres too much pain in this world. I cant handle it. I don’t want to breathe. With each breath there’s pain. I don’t want to be in pain. Im tired of it. How can I move on? I want to live but die at the same time. 

These days I just feel alone and sad. I feel no one cares about me. Everyone is lost in their own world. Does that mean it is okay for you to not care about those around you? Isn’t the middle path better than going to extremes? How do I tell people this? What do you say to those who are purposely ignoring you? How do you explain to them that you feel mental and physical pain all the time?

I try to stay positive most of the times, but everyone has bad days. I guess today is one of my bad days. Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful for everything in my life but isn’t it a human emotion to feel hurt by peoples actions? If you knew your presence and words have such a strong influence on others would you still purposely hurt them? Or is that a sign they really dont care?

I guess I need to sleep it off. Take a look at the poem I wrote:

Today I feel sad. 
I feel like something is wrong. 
You are not the same with me. 
Why?
Is everything okay?
Are you okay?
Man, what’s wrong?
I feel so sad. 
Please help me take this sadness away.
I miss you.